For the first time, Janelle Manahan, girlfriend of murdered actor Ramgen Revilla, made a public guesting on ABS-CBN's morning show "KrisTV" hosted by Kris Aquino.
Manahan, 22, was with Revilla on October 29 when the tragic death happened. Manahan was also shot twice on the left side of her face and shoulder.
In KrisTV's taped episode aired on Thursday, Manahan shared her emotions over the tragic death of her long-time boyfriend.
But despite what happened, she said she continues to believe that there's a reason why she survived the attack.
"Iniisip ko everything happens for reason. Kung bakit ako nabuhay it's maybe because I should give justice to what happened to him (Ramgen)," Manahan said.
Manahan, a former ABS-CBN contract star, admitted that until now she still cries for what happened and that she badly misses Revilla. She said she was with Revilla till his last breath.
"Sana kahit for a while makausap ko siya, kahit sa dream. Hindi ko kasi nasabi sa kanya ang damdamin ko sa kanya that day even though siya buong araw siyang nag-a-I-love you. Kasi para sa akin kapag ang tao laging nag-a-i-love you sa iyo parang tingin mo hindi na totoo or OA (over acting). That day talagang smallest thing magte-thank you siya at maga-I love you, so parang di ko pinapansin so hindi ako nag-I-love you back. So sana yon lang (yung I love you too) ay masabi ko sa kanya," she said.
Manahan revealed that after Revilla's death, there were a number of times when he would make his presence felt.
"Pero sa tingin ko ay peaceful siya. Peaceful ang mukha niya. Sa tingin ko hindi siya galit. Maaliwalas ang mukha niya," she said.
And while she fears for her life, Mahanan said she will continue finding justice for Revilla until the end.
"I promise to give him justice, kung hanggang saan ko kaya I will do it," she vowed.
Mom offered Janelle's life to God
In her TV guesting, Manahan was accompanied by her mother, Rosario, who also shared the pain of almost losing her child.
Rosario said she was in Legaspi with the rest of their family when the incident happened. She said it was a shocking moment when she received the call from Janelle saying she was shot.
"It was a sleepless night for me. What I did that night I just prayed to Mama Mary and offered her life kasi wala akong magagawa. I offered everything to the Lord that night and the next day I took the flight to Manila," she said.
"Pagdating ko sini-CT scan siya so hindi ko pa siya matignan. When I saw her nakita ko ang right side niya lang. So sabi ko OK na siya. Noong pumasok kami sa room doon ko nakita ang pinasukan ng bala so I started crying again," she added.
Like her daughter, Rosario, said she believes everything happens for a purpose.
"Naisip ko trials itong lahat ng dumarating sa buhay natin ay para maging strong lang tayo sa buhay natin. So I offered everything to him," she said.
In the show, Manahan took the chance to apologized to her mom, for all the disappointments and heartaches she gave.
Manahan was only 17 when she decided to live in with Revilla. She also left showbiz for the slain actor.
"Thank you (mom) and sorry kung na-disappoint kita many times. Even na-disppoint kita before ay hindi mo ako pinabayaan especially now. Thanks for always reminding me to hold on to God. I love you so much," she said.
Until now, Manahan is still undergoing treatment for her facial paralysis brought by the incident.
Source: http://www.abs-cbnnews.com/entertainment/01/05/12/janelle-guests-kristv-shares-tragic-experience-ramgen
